I'll Train You Good

Have you ever gotten to a place in your life where you don't have anything to lose? Your pride is already gone so what the heck, I can just say what what ever I want, who cares. It's freeing really. I do realize that I may never get another real date in my life after I say what I'm about to say but what the heck it's not looking real good anyways.

I will start off, by saying it's pretty clear I have trouble with men. OH the endless chatter about what is wrong with me. First it's my horses, if I was as passionate about men as I am with horses than I would have one in my life. Then it's I'm to head strong, a good man wants to be the one in charge, or I'm to picky. I tried loosing interest in my horses in pursuit of a man, I was miserable! According to my friends somehow I became to desperate and now I need to get stronger and chose better men. Well hell!

With all the trouble I have went through lately, I think one really finds out who they are and what they want, when you go through a bit of shit. Going through hard times gives you a real sense of what you don't want in your life and refines what you do. I love my horses and I deserve to have them in my life. They are honest and never change. They have been my best friends and they don't care how I look or that I am small, they respect and except me for me. It is a true partnership. I take care of them and they lift me up and make me better than I am without them. They are bratty and demanding but respectful if I work for it. They definately keep me on my toes. If one gets to big headed you might find yourself on your butt in the dirt. It's real, it's honest, and a lot of hard work as true relationship are.

Every man I have ever really dated after a while, they say I am training them like one of my horses, they use this to win any arguement. And to that I always say NO I am trying to help you understand but in my mind, I am truly thinking, of corse I am, clearly you have no idea what the heck you are doing, when it come to loving me.
Who would want to be treated badly? someone putting you down, have someone say to you ''even though you are not The One, I would like to have sex with you while I'm waiting for her to come along". That lovely disclaimer men have. If a man ever says he is a real ass hole before sex believe him and run. Why Can't we just be friends with benefits they say. You get yours and I'll get mine, it fine. Hearing this line of crap a few times I thought I would start doing and saying everthing they said and did to me right back at them. And you know what? They get pretty up set about it. I give them the disclaimer before we get started so we understand I am waiting for The One. They actually get butt hurt when you treat them like a sex toy. Funny they don't like it one bit either. Everyone is waiting for The One, someone you love to spend time with, just when you say it, it puts real pressure on the situation. I do realize by saying I'm waiting for the one I am putting them on the spot but isn't that the point.
Because I train horses for a living I can't train my man? Who thought of that one? Everyone trains the other person in a relationship, it's called setting boundaries.

I write songs about my life and I write them in poem form first then I put them to music later, it's just the way I write. I thought seeing I have all these song I can't afford to get recorded I will share them as their original form, the poem.

I'll Train You Good

Wild at heart and free to run
Love em and leave em in the morning sun
All the honey that you still
Can't brake the emptiness you feel

While I'm training horses all day long
Wondering why we don't get along
Why are good men so hard to find
I'll train me up one gentle and kind

I'll train you good
You know I would
Save you the bracken if I could
You won't respect me if I would
Oh honey don't you know
It's for your own good

Stubborn and wild and down right mean
Well you never seen the likes of me
I whip your ass and spur yours sides
It only hurts your over grown pride

The only time it going to hurt
When you try to through me in the dirt
It wont' be long before I make you kind
love can gentle your worried mind

I'll train you good
I'd save you the bracken if I could
You won't respect me if I would
Oh honey don't you know
it's for your own good

Men and horses their all the same
If you know how to play the game
When he comes with heart it hand
Then you know you've got a good man

Easy boy it's alright
Easy boy it's alright

ps.. tomorrow I will post

I'll Be Waiting

until then have a good night and God Bless.