Space

I am learning some cover songs on guitar and I knew the first time I heard the song Space by Sara Buxton I wanted to cover that song. It was after my Dads passing and the song really hit me not so much about my father but about all the talks we had. We spent countless hour try to figure out how to get through falling in love without the hurting and I have come to the conclusion that you can't. It goes together, my father liked to say "life is like a rubber ball bouncing right along. He was very frustrating to talk to sometimes, fun and interesting but argumentative to say the least, he would take the other side in everything. When it came to my love life, this invoked many the arguments however and of course I was hurt buy this, I needed him to understand how I felt and he would say to me "I'm sorry honey but I see it from a man point of view and what you want from your man sound terrible to me, I would run from a chick like that, alway trying to change me." He didn't understand, why couldn't he understand how much it hurts when a man needs his space. No matter what situation I was in he would say "there is something you like about it or you wouldn't still be there." and he was right, irritating but right, I was forever trying to fix my man and my dad from their maleness. In the end of all our fun arguing and we did have fun at it, if I made my point and I would not falter he would actually giggle. We talked endlessly about the differences between us, I taugh my father about woman and he taught me about men. We are different for a reason and that energy bounces, the higher you go up, the farther you come down, and we are all afraid to feel to much for that reason, but don't lose sight of the fact you get to go back up again. The trix is, well if there really is one, I mean if you are in love or falling in love all I can really say is "good luck with that." lol but really if you get into rhythm with your man so that you bounce together but in your own space it works better cause lets face it who wants a man around all the time anyhow? We all need our alone time! It's that need woman have to feel connected that men don't understand and men's need to feel free that woman don't understand, well you can't change it trust me I've tried. lol So what to do in those times? when things get to close to the heart and he needs space and you need closeness? the song say it all, "I'll give you space." You have to stand up for your needs and the man really does wants to try again, he needs to miss you and he need to know he will lose you if he doesn't, that's what makes him feel, so have some fun with it. Get more pro active don't sit around and wait, do something you love doing that doesn't involve him, I know you can't disconnect from him and he is in your mind 24/7 but you need to go enjoy your life, he will love you for it. You only have a few of the really big bounces to get through before it starts to bounce along more steady if you set your boundaries right with the man in your life, well until life hits you again. When you are on the down bounce of life or love, trust and hold on, you don't want to fall off when you hit the ground and missout on the up bounce. I miss my talks with my Dad, life is to short to stay sitting on the ground feeling sorry for myself so I'm going to ride it with my spurs on<);0)

Windy

Yesterday was a great day! The weather was perfect and I was enjoying planting flowers when little Windy my two year old by Seven From Heaven started to follow me around, I have her grazing around the house to help me with the weed whacking;0)She is a curious little one and usually ends up getting into trouble. Braking water lines is one of her favorite things to do. She loves water, something she learned from her mother I'm Expressin Myself (Sabrina)when she was little. My water line gets hot in the summer so I spray my mares out in the pasture with the hot water, by the time it hits them it cool enough until it cools down so I can spray off the horse I'm done working with without scalding them. The mares fight over the best spot and Sabrina is up font, each baby learns, water is not so bad after all. Yesterday I was trying to water the flowers and she wanted spayed, nudging me knocking over flowers. I needed to go check my fence line so I decide to ride her, I have only been on her a few times but what the heck. I grab a halter and jump up on her bareback. I haven't jump on a horse with shorts and flip flops on in awhile. I was a little nervous thinking how much it would hurt if I slipped off but she seemed fine with it so off we went to check fences. She was great! I'm so glad I didn't sell her for practically nothing. She is a keeper this one, she's kinda a funny color but I really enjoy her company very much<):0)

Coyote trouble again

Walked out my back door on my way to plant some flowers and I caught a glimpse of a Coyote caring one of my chickens off. I ran back into the house and got the gun. It is quite a ways down to the barn from my house and the coyote was out in the big arena past that so by the time I got down there it was making some ground on me. I steadied the gun and took my shot, the coyote dropped the chicken and ran. I missed! but I did get my dead chicken back. Should I eat her? she doesn't seem to have much meat to her. I look for the hatchet but couldn't find it, took her into the house to find a sharp enough knife. My knives are all dull and now looking down at her in the sink she, doesn't look very appetizing and she kinda smells. I decide to get some sharp knives for the next time something like this happen so the gross part goes faster and I can make good use of the meat but today I'm not hungry enough and so I I go back to planting my flowers;0)